R.I.P. Emma Margaret Nahas. I will miss you I wish I could have talked to you one last time. At one point in time we were sisters living the almost exact life just a couple streets down from each other. You helped me with so much, you were my sister, a sister I never had. We had so many good memories, and that will be your legacy. Emms I know you're in a better place now, God took you back. But I want you to know that I still love you so much. Our friendship grew to where we wwere spending every day together and would go to football games with those weird guys, which I never ended up giving his book back to him. :/ We threw parties with Jess and decorated the house that one day for the mexican party we were throwing. You stuck that smiley face stocker on grandma's butt she had a smiley ass. I have all the pictures we took in the mall hanging up. Ew that one time you got a needle stuck in your toe I felt bad because I couldn't get it out without getting sick, so Jess did it. Camping in the woods behind Jess' house, hilarious. New Years '06 with Annie, Katie, You and Jess, I will never forget it. Jill's 21st birthday at Rocco's pizza. That one time we forgot to pay at Rocco's. Riding on the electric scooter to Oak Park and seeing Mr. Jacoby. Bike rides and kids at oak park and going to dairy queen. Typing notes in free mods.You will not be forgotten. You were such an amazing young woman, and you knew it. You were fun and out going and hilarious as all hell and just a great person. You only let a couple people into your life. Thankfully I was one of them. You have no idea how much you changed me and made me come out of my shell. I am who I am today because of you. The guilt I have for losing touch with you these past 3 years, is tearing me up inside. But I wanted you to know that I will not forget you, it's impossible to forget somebody who leaves such a big impact on your life. I love you emms <3
my PTL site if you wanna check it out: http://postthelove.com/members/meganmsandy
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Secret
There is only 1 secret I've never told anybody including my best friend. I can talk about anything else, except for this one thing. There's been plenty of opportunities to bring it up, but for a while I didn't remember what had happened. Somebody recently said something that rattled my brain and I remembered. It took me by surprise and now I'm left here wondering if I should say something. But I don't know how to say it or even who to talk to about it. It's not something that I want people to know, but at the same time I want somebody to know so that I can feel less constricted with this. I have a habit I do because of what happened. Yes, this isn't making any sense, but I don't know how else to put it out there. I can't say it, I don't know the words, plus I don't know if anything ever happened afterward or not.
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Friendships past
Time will pass, feelings will not last. Friendships will be put to the test, you will learn to not trust the rest. Friends are hard to come by, so keep the ones who try. When you do end up not talking for a few years, the guilt will hit you like a thousand fears. By the time you want to talk again its too late, she's gone forever for god's sake. Take the time to talk to your old good friends, you never know when their life or yours will end.
Saturday, July 17, 2010
Friday, July 16, 2010
Random Facts
An estimated one billion birds die each year in the U.S. from smashing into windows.
The smallest human penis ever recorded was just 5/8 of an inch long.
Men are 4 times more likely to get struck by lightning than woman.
Iguanas, Koalas and Komodo dragons all have two penises.
The Bible is the number one most shoplifted book of all time.
If a statue in the park of a person on a horse has both front legs in the air, the person died in battle; if the horse has one front leg in the air, the person died from battle wounds; if the horse has all four legs on the ground, the person died of natural causes.
Over 2500 left-handed people a year are killed from using equipment made for right-handed people.
The right-handed power saw is the most deadly item.
Hippopotomonstrosesquippedaliophobia is the fear of long words.
Women speak about 7000 words a day. The average man averages just over 2000.
Polar bear fur is not white, it's clear.
There are no clocks in Las Vegas gambling casinos. It increases the sense of freedom, a disconnect from reality and thus, increases the dollars spent gambling.
Some other tricks casinos use:
1) There are no windows, so people don't know if it's day or night outside.
2) They design casinos to be like mazes so you can't find your way out.
3) They give free alcohol to the gamblers so they continue to gamble.
In 1998, Sony accidently sold 700,000 camcorders that had the technology to see through people's clothes.
Percentage of American men who say they would marry the same woman if they had it to do all over again: 80%.
Percentage of American women who say they'd marry the same man: 50%.
The largest number of children born to one woman is recorded at 69.
The longest English word, at 45 letters, is 'pneumonoultramicroscopicsilicovolcanoconiosis'.
The cost of the halftime commercials during the Superbowl could feed the world's entire refugee population (62 million) twice.
Semen travels at 28 mph.
In Hong Kong the wife of a husband who commits adultery is legally entitled to kill the mistress in any manner desired - but she may only murder the husband with her bare hands.
In ancient Egypt, people shaved their eyebrows as a sign of mourning when their cats died.
'Subbookkeeper' is the only word that has double letters four times in a row.
In New York, the penalty for jumping off a building is death.
The smallest human penis ever recorded was just 5/8 of an inch long.
Men are 4 times more likely to get struck by lightning than woman.
Iguanas, Koalas and Komodo dragons all have two penises.
The Bible is the number one most shoplifted book of all time.
If a statue in the park of a person on a horse has both front legs in the air, the person died in battle; if the horse has one front leg in the air, the person died from battle wounds; if the horse has all four legs on the ground, the person died of natural causes.
Over 2500 left-handed people a year are killed from using equipment made for right-handed people.
The right-handed power saw is the most deadly item.
Hippopotomonstrosesquippedaliophobia is the fear of long words.
Women speak about 7000 words a day. The average man averages just over 2000.
Polar bear fur is not white, it's clear.
There are no clocks in Las Vegas gambling casinos. It increases the sense of freedom, a disconnect from reality and thus, increases the dollars spent gambling.
Some other tricks casinos use:
1) There are no windows, so people don't know if it's day or night outside.
2) They design casinos to be like mazes so you can't find your way out.
3) They give free alcohol to the gamblers so they continue to gamble.
In 1998, Sony accidently sold 700,000 camcorders that had the technology to see through people's clothes.
Percentage of American men who say they would marry the same woman if they had it to do all over again: 80%.
Percentage of American women who say they'd marry the same man: 50%.
The largest number of children born to one woman is recorded at 69.
The longest English word, at 45 letters, is 'pneumonoultramicroscopicsilicovolcanoconiosis'.
The cost of the halftime commercials during the Superbowl could feed the world's entire refugee population (62 million) twice.
Semen travels at 28 mph.
In Hong Kong the wife of a husband who commits adultery is legally entitled to kill the mistress in any manner desired - but she may only murder the husband with her bare hands.
In ancient Egypt, people shaved their eyebrows as a sign of mourning when their cats died.
'Subbookkeeper' is the only word that has double letters four times in a row.
In New York, the penalty for jumping off a building is death.
Thursday, July 15, 2010
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
In Love
I feel worth so much when I'm with him, like I actually mean something to somebody. Like I'm special to somebody. I feel like I belong in his arms and I'm so in love with him. In love. In love with Jake. <3
Saturday, July 10, 2010
Update on Emma
They've stopped searching for her. Here's a link to the site and it's comments to view:
http://www.topix.net/forum/source/fox8/T62DDL20RS0BNG0H0/p5#lastPost
Some of these comments are extremely rude! Just to let everybody know they pissed me off.
http://www.topix.net/forum/source/fox8/T62DDL20RS0BNG0H0/p5#lastPost
Some of these comments are extremely rude! Just to let everybody know they pissed me off.
Friday, July 9, 2010
Taken from Ohio.com [Please Pray!]
Search continues on Lake Erie for Elms graduate
By Beacon Journal staff
POSTED: 02:34 p.m. EDT, Jul 09, 2010
The U.S. Coast Guard continues its search on Lake Erie of Burke Lakefront Airport in Cleveland for a woman missing since Thursday night.
The Coast Guard says Emma Nahas, 21, a graduate of Our Lady of the Elms High School in Akron, was last seen wearing an orange bathing suit.
The guard was notified around 8:30 p.m. by the Cleveland Police Department who had received a 911-call from a boat on Lake Erie that one of its passengers was missing.
The guard said those aboard the boat indicated Nahas drifted away while swimming in the lake about 2 to 3 miles north of 55th Street in downtown Cleveland. Reports indicate she was not wearing a lifejacket.
The Coast Guard initially dispatched a 41-foot utility boat from its station in Cleveland Harbor and a rescue helicopter from Detroit.
The Coast Guard said the search continued Friday afternoon utilizing both boats and helicopters. Boats from the Cleveland Police Department, the Cleveland Fire Department and the Ohio Department of Natural Resources is assisted in the search on Friday.
Although federal regulations ''require that mariners merely maintain personal flotation devices onboard their vessels,'' the Coast Guard urges all passengers to wear life jackets at all times.
The U.S. Coast Guard continues its search on Lake Erie of Burke Lakefront Airport in Cleveland for a woman missing since Thursday night.
The Coast Guard says Emma Nahas, 21, a graduate of Our Lady of the Elms High School in Akron, was last seen wearing an orange bathing suit.
The guard was notified around 8:30 p.m. by the Cleveland Police Department who had received a 911-call from a boat on Lake Erie that one of its passengers was missing.
The guard said those aboard the boat indicated Nahas drifted away while swimming in the lake about 2 to 3 miles north of 55th Street in downtown Cleveland. Reports indicate she was not wearing a lifejacket.
The Coast Guard initially dispatched a 41-foot utility boat from its station in Cleveland Harbor and a rescue helicopter from Detroit.
The Coast Guard said the search continued Friday afternoon utilizing both boats and helicopters. Boats from the Cleveland Police Department, the Cleveland Fire Department and the Ohio Department of Natural Resources is assisted in the search on Friday.
Although federal regulations ''require that mariners merely maintain personal flotation devices onboard their vessels,'' the Coast Guard urges all passengers to wear life jackets at all times.
Emma and I were good friends at one point. It was Emma, Jess, and I. The trio in highschool. We were all three very close. This honestly does not seem real at all. I want to join the search for her. They need to find her. I admit the last 4 years we haven't talked but she moved away and there was no way to stay in contact. People change, but at one point we were close, and I wish that the search would end with finding her and she is okay.
By Beacon Journal staff
POSTED: 02:34 p.m. EDT, Jul 09, 2010
The U.S. Coast Guard continues its search on Lake Erie of Burke Lakefront Airport in Cleveland for a woman missing since Thursday night.
The Coast Guard says Emma Nahas, 21, a graduate of Our Lady of the Elms High School in Akron, was last seen wearing an orange bathing suit.
The guard was notified around 8:30 p.m. by the Cleveland Police Department who had received a 911-call from a boat on Lake Erie that one of its passengers was missing.
The guard said those aboard the boat indicated Nahas drifted away while swimming in the lake about 2 to 3 miles north of 55th Street in downtown Cleveland. Reports indicate she was not wearing a lifejacket.
The Coast Guard initially dispatched a 41-foot utility boat from its station in Cleveland Harbor and a rescue helicopter from Detroit.
The Coast Guard said the search continued Friday afternoon utilizing both boats and helicopters. Boats from the Cleveland Police Department, the Cleveland Fire Department and the Ohio Department of Natural Resources is assisted in the search on Friday.
Although federal regulations ''require that mariners merely maintain personal flotation devices onboard their vessels,'' the Coast Guard urges all passengers to wear life jackets at all times.
The U.S. Coast Guard continues its search on Lake Erie of Burke Lakefront Airport in Cleveland for a woman missing since Thursday night.
The Coast Guard says Emma Nahas, 21, a graduate of Our Lady of the Elms High School in Akron, was last seen wearing an orange bathing suit.
The guard was notified around 8:30 p.m. by the Cleveland Police Department who had received a 911-call from a boat on Lake Erie that one of its passengers was missing.
The guard said those aboard the boat indicated Nahas drifted away while swimming in the lake about 2 to 3 miles north of 55th Street in downtown Cleveland. Reports indicate she was not wearing a lifejacket.
The Coast Guard initially dispatched a 41-foot utility boat from its station in Cleveland Harbor and a rescue helicopter from Detroit.
The Coast Guard said the search continued Friday afternoon utilizing both boats and helicopters. Boats from the Cleveland Police Department, the Cleveland Fire Department and the Ohio Department of Natural Resources is assisted in the search on Friday.
Although federal regulations ''require that mariners merely maintain personal flotation devices onboard their vessels,'' the Coast Guard urges all passengers to wear life jackets at all times.
Emma and I were good friends at one point. It was Emma, Jess, and I. The trio in highschool. We were all three very close. This honestly does not seem real at all. I want to join the search for her. They need to find her. I admit the last 4 years we haven't talked but she moved away and there was no way to stay in contact. People change, but at one point we were close, and I wish that the search would end with finding her and she is okay.
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
This Love Knocked Me Off My Feet, He Caught Me Though
Well I talked to my boyfriend about the alleged eating disorder. He told me basically if I had one we would need to take a break for a month until I figured stuff out. That's when it hit me hard, I needed to snap out of it. I don't want to lose him. So I've been trying to eat, it's not going very smoothly. I just either forget to, or am too busy to eat, or even when I do eat it goes right through me. I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm definately losing weight, I should be bloated this week, usually I get very bloated when it's that time of the month, and you can barely tell.
But to get on with life as I know it. This past week has been pretty good. The past 3 days I spent with Jake. It was a good 3 days, because I finally opened up to him. It only took 5 months. I tend to close up with people who try to get close to me, and open up with people who really don't care that much. I don't really know why, but it's always been that way, since I can remember. I need to work on it though. I figure certain people just make appearances in your life while other stick around, so they will know you more, and they have more time to get to know you. So that in time, maybe they will learn who the Real me is. Not that I'm a fake person around new people, it's just I close up and don't really talk. People that are close to me wish I'd shut the hell up though. But anyway all is good and going well with Jake. It's very exciting. I love him so much and care about him so much. It sucks not being with him all the time, but we all need some time to breathe.
Tonight I realized that a lot of people like to vent to me. I like to try and help them out, not complaining. But sometimes I feel like the advice I give to them they try to spin it around to me during situations where it doesn't even apply.
I'm not going to let anybody or anything stand in my way right now. I am focused and loyal, and a good person. Who is in love with a man who is focused loyal and a good person. We match very well. I love thinking about him, just imagine how I feel when him and I are actually together. It's an amazing feeling I have for him. I honestly can see us lasting a long time. I hope we do, I kind of know we will though. Him and I have been dating for 5 months, and still I get nervous but a good nervous feeling kissing him and just holding his hand. I love him so much. I wish I could knock down all the walls and remember stuff that could be important for him to know. But sometimes when there is something that is traumatising or embarrassing to me I block it out and totally forget about it until somebody tells me about it and I have to actually go into my memory and get it out of those cobwebs around it and remember.
But to get on with life as I know it. This past week has been pretty good. The past 3 days I spent with Jake. It was a good 3 days, because I finally opened up to him. It only took 5 months. I tend to close up with people who try to get close to me, and open up with people who really don't care that much. I don't really know why, but it's always been that way, since I can remember. I need to work on it though. I figure certain people just make appearances in your life while other stick around, so they will know you more, and they have more time to get to know you. So that in time, maybe they will learn who the Real me is. Not that I'm a fake person around new people, it's just I close up and don't really talk. People that are close to me wish I'd shut the hell up though. But anyway all is good and going well with Jake. It's very exciting. I love him so much and care about him so much. It sucks not being with him all the time, but we all need some time to breathe.
Tonight I realized that a lot of people like to vent to me. I like to try and help them out, not complaining. But sometimes I feel like the advice I give to them they try to spin it around to me during situations where it doesn't even apply.
I'm not going to let anybody or anything stand in my way right now. I am focused and loyal, and a good person. Who is in love with a man who is focused loyal and a good person. We match very well. I love thinking about him, just imagine how I feel when him and I are actually together. It's an amazing feeling I have for him. I honestly can see us lasting a long time. I hope we do, I kind of know we will though. Him and I have been dating for 5 months, and still I get nervous but a good nervous feeling kissing him and just holding his hand. I love him so much. I wish I could knock down all the walls and remember stuff that could be important for him to know. But sometimes when there is something that is traumatising or embarrassing to me I block it out and totally forget about it until somebody tells me about it and I have to actually go into my memory and get it out of those cobwebs around it and remember.
Saturday, July 3, 2010
Thursday, July 1, 2010
Life As I Know it is Falling Apart Slowly...
I don't want to say I have an eating disorder, because I am not too sure of it. But I eat once a day, I don't like to eat in front of people, I don't like talking about food, it's as if I feel ashamed to eat, and when I actually do eat it will be later in the day like around 11 pm usually, and I stay up until 4 am mostly. When I do eat it goes right through me. So I don't know what is going on. My mom the other night said I was borderline anorexic, and to be honest I think I'm getting there. I don't want to ask for help though, I'm too scared. I've apparently lost weight as pointed out by a couple people, including my boyfriend. I should talk to him about it, but I'm super scared that I'm going to breakdown, this is scary but kind of familiar territory. The symptoms I found on WebMD of eating disorders are:
1. A distorted body image.
2. Skipping most meals.
3. Unusual eating habits (such as eating thousands of calories at one meal or skipping meals).
4. Frequent weighing.
5. Extreme weight change.
6. Insomnia.
7. Constipation.
8. Skin rash or dry skin.
9. Dental cavities.
10. Erosion of tooth enamel.
11. Loss of hair or nail quality.
12. Hyperactivity and high interest in exercise.
I didn't even realize half of these were even symptoms which makes me think I really must have one. Because out of these syptoms these are the ones I have: 1[sometimes],2,3,6,9,11, and 12. Now I'm beginning to question it hard core. I'm super scared, if anybody has insight I would love to hear. Honestly, I would. Help!
1. A distorted body image.
2. Skipping most meals.
3. Unusual eating habits (such as eating thousands of calories at one meal or skipping meals).
4. Frequent weighing.
5. Extreme weight change.
6. Insomnia.
7. Constipation.
8. Skin rash or dry skin.
9. Dental cavities.
10. Erosion of tooth enamel.
11. Loss of hair or nail quality.
12. Hyperactivity and high interest in exercise.
I didn't even realize half of these were even symptoms which makes me think I really must have one. Because out of these syptoms these are the ones I have: 1[sometimes],2,3,6,9,11, and 12. Now I'm beginning to question it hard core. I'm super scared, if anybody has insight I would love to hear. Honestly, I would. Help!
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