Secret

There is only 1 secret I've never told anybody including my best friend. I can talk about anything else, except for this one thing. There's been plenty of opportunities to bring it up, but for a while I didn't remember what had happened. Somebody recently said something that rattled my brain and I remembered. It took me by surprise and now I'm left here wondering if I should say something. But I don't know how to say it or even who to talk to about it. It's not something that I want people to know, but at the same time I want somebody to know so that I can feel less constricted with this. I have a habit I do because of what happened. Yes, this isn't making any sense, but I don't know how else to put it out there. I can't say it, I don't know the words, plus I don't know if anything ever happened afterward or not.